An Antagonist (Iscariot, the Opera, part 2)

OK, so who’s the protagonist (good guy-hero) in Iscariot? Maybe that’s a question on your mind because Judas would have to be the antagonist (bad guy-villain). He’s kind of the ultimate antagonist, right? It’s a serious writing problem… and a musical one too. And you can’t just say that the protagonist is Jesus. Then it’s not a story about Judas. So, for all of you who may or may not be interested, there are three solutions I have played with.

Think Moby Dick. He’s the monster that has to be slain. But he can only be slain by another monster or monstrous character: Captain Ahab. My three plot solutions…

1) The struggle between monsters in my opera libretto can be a struggle inside Judas. I would portray his toxic ambition like an impersonal, dangerous addiction. We can all relate to this, and it fits my dad’s business worldview. However, my only option here is to “invent” a back story that imagines things not reported in Scripture and highlights an endearingly good side of Judas so that we see a Dr. Jeckyl versus Mr. Hyde thing going on. Interesting. Difficult.

2) Or I can make John and James co-protagonists (is that even a thing?) and set the story up as a struggle between normal (holy?) ambition that can be developed versus unholy ambition that can’t. This seems a little easier to write and scares me less. Maybe not as interesting.

3) Or I can personify ambition itself as the antagonist (not Judas) who then takes Judas’ soul and life (like Satan or a demon would), but then who loses to and is destroyed by John and James because of their relationship with Jesus. This rings true and has potential. These two would, of course, be the protagonists here as well. (Maybe just pick one, right? That’s a lot of tenors.)

You see? This is why my dusty, dated project, along with many others, has been buried so long in my drawer with only a worldwide pandemic to dig it out. I know others of us feel this way about our life’s undone work. Life buries the plans we have for it by being… well… life. Life gets complicated by life. This is what life is like. Maybe this is why the clarifying (toxic) ambition of a character like Star Wars’ Emperor Palpatine plays so well in our culture. We get it. We seriously get the appeal. We want those dramatic results, the short-term ones anyway.

Related points:

  • The protagonist, regardless, has to be the hero, and you need a hero and a hero arc, especially for an opera. You need this in life too, no matter who you are. Judas and Satan both saw themselves as heroes as we read about them in the Gospels. (The best antagonists in any literature never see themselves as the villains they are!)
  • I have two other fiction projects that are not tied to music (thank God!) and are much farther (or is it further) along (thanks to Scrivener). I’m not letting anyone know about them. Iscariot is an idea I’m trying to raise from the dead. Actual living ideas would not get this attention. It would kill them.
  • The irony does not escape me. I am trying to summon or rekindle the ambition to write a piece about (and against) ambition. Ambition is a tricky thing. It can be dangerous and dull at the same time. Most toxically ambitious people any of us know are dangerous for a minute and dull for eternity. The 10th commandment was not an afterthought.
  • I long ago quit on some big creative projects. I daily see and hear things in life that whip my attention away from restarting them. There are millions of wannabe writers and composers like me in the world. Steven Pressfield in “The War of Art” is correct (and brutal) when he speaks about the real enemy of all art, something he calls Resistance. It’s the enemy of any “Art of Christian Living” too in my opinion.
  • I just want to do ALL my real work. Is this how life is making you feel these days? Some of it for me, besides ministry and the military, involves music paper. Some of it also involves wall paper! (Frightening!)
  • Thank you for a few of you (one actually) saying you want to hear Iscariot when it’s done. So far, however, it’s not very good and nowhere near done. Regardless, I feel driven to finish it. And I think this is where many of us find ourselves in life today due to COVID-19. It’s not about results anymore, it’s about the process. This is, in fact, what Judas missed. He thought life was about what you win and who you beat. But Jesus teaches us that life is more about what you give and who you help. So, if my opera (it’s really a musical) never gets done (though I am committed to finishing it) maybe my writing about it here can help you write yours. This verse encourages me…

Acts 20:24But I do not account my life of any value nor as precious to myself, if only I may finish my course and the ministry that I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God.

What is it God is calling you to finish? Do you have writing or building to do? Do you have school to go back to? Is your work in Christ parenting, but your children are grown and long gone? Is your work ministry of some kind? Is your work a new business that you know will bless customers and employees alike? If God started something in your life, even if it was 50, 60, 70 years ago, He meant it. Even if it was 50, 60, 70 days ago too. Finishing our work is about more than our work, it’s about our testimony. Isn’t Acts 20:24 a relief to read when talking about ambition? I agree.

Iscariot, the Opera

Matthew 26:14–16

[14] Then one of the twelve, whose name was Judas Iscariot, went to the chief priests [15] and said, “What will you give me if I deliver him over to you?” And they paid him thirty pieces of silver. [16] And from that moment he sought an opportunity to betray him. (ESV)

One of my handful of massive, unfinished, lifetime music composition projects is a mess of an opera titled “Iscariot.” I started it during (my first round of) college as a music composition major. I know. You might be thinking that Judas is a weird thing to finally blog about after not writing here since before COVID-19 began the American leg of its world tour. You might also think Judas is an odd topic for an opera. I beg to differ on both counts. Betrayal and the inevitable condemnation that follow it are not strange or undue things to write blogs or operas about. Not on this planet. They are bread and butter human experiences, whatever else is happening in the world. Human history is a history of treachery and comeuppance. This is why Judas is central to the Gospel and the story of what Jesus Christ went through for us. Christ endured His God-assigned cosmic experience of betrayal for us so that we could endure our little, local experiences of betrayal with Him. There is no better friend to have than Jesus when you’ve been stabbed in the back by someone you trusted. I’ve seen the brilliantly ugly phenomenon of betrayal up close since I was in High School. I continue to see it regularly. You do too, no doubt.

Some people are hijacked by ambition like Judas, the most ambitious of the apostles. They sell out their friends and family, who turn out not to be friends or family to them but merely means to an end. An average excess of ambition, by comparison, does not make a Judas, but makes people like James and John. “Mommy, talk to Jesus and tell him to make us His favorites.” (See Matthew 20:20-24. These were grown men!) All-consuming ambition, however, the Judas kind, forges nothing so visibly obscene in a person, but rather a camouflaged lack of character. People who want everything are people who will lie about anything. In my early military career the term we used for them was “gunners.” You will know the extremely ambitious, the gunners, by their lies. They are not just competitive, they are cut-throat. We’ve all heard the one about how Judas was likely the most gifted of the 12 apostles. No one suspected him to betray Jesus to the death. Does he mirror Satan who some say was the greatest of the angels before his fall? Anyway, this kind of hidden ambition was something I was first exposed to in my childhood through some of the people my father worked with and told me about. The seeds of my unfinished opera were planted by these talks with my dad. He told me the following about toxic ambition. I’m using my words here to recall his.

  1. People who want to be winners more than they want to be good tend to cheat and betray those closest to them the most. Many evil deeds in history, big or small in scale, can be traced back to this brand of ambition. This is the explanation for the presence of the 10th commandment. You’ve got to covet before you murder, worship idols, cheat on your wife, or steal. (See Exodus 20 or Deuteronomy 5.)
  2. Toxically ambitious people tend to think, like Judas once did, that they are above repercussions. Whatever they do to hurt you will never come back to hurt them. That’s the logic. The rules don’t apply to them. They can take what they want. It’s their birthright. They are special and better than us. They will never believe otherwise. They will seek to convince you that their desires are more important than you or your life.
  3. These people do end up winning much of time. If you pay a high enough price and make others pay a high enough price, then, in God’s sovereignty, you will probably get what you want. Once you get it however, it won’t be what you thought. This reversal occurs 100% of the time. The Bible is filled with stories about this.
  4. However, my father taught, never begrudge a gunner his win. It is all he has. (My father used different words, but I think his point here was that if someone sells his soul to gain the world, let him have the world. It’s really the world that has him and soon enough “there will be hell to pay.”)
  5. Every Judas, in fact, meets a Judas fate in one way or another. These are the business stories Dad would tell. The key for the rest of us, he observed, was to never gloat or glory in their fall. For the blindly ambitious their fate in life or in business is a tragedy. They deserve our pity, not our anger. This is what attracted me to the idea for an opera about the ultimate anti-hero: Judas Iscariot. Something attracted him to Jesus. It couldn’t have been just power or dreams of worldly success. Or was it? Are people today still drawn to Jesus for reasons other than Jesus?
  6. Whatever my dad’s actual ethnicity was, he did grow up in New Mexico and Navajo things and thoughts were part of his story. Here are three Navajo sayings that fit the bill here:
    1. Coyote is always out there waiting, and Coyote is always hungry.
    2. A rocky vineyard does not need a prayer, but a pick ax.
    3. You can’t wake a person who is pretending to be asleep.
  7. This last one points to Judas. You can’t wake a pretender. People rendered false by their ambition insist on their authenticity and sincerity. It is a story they never stop telling. At this point you are not dealing with a person, but a performance. Judas was this. His throwing the 30 pieces of silver back at the Pharisees was a part of his being a performance. Some comment that Judas was sincere in his sorrow near the end of his life. The Bible doesn’t say this. Instead it says “he changed his mind” and that he confessed, “I have betrayed innocent blood.” (Matthew 27:3-5) This does not look like repentance to me, but regret. Bitter regret. (2 Corinthians 7:10 confirms this for me. “For godly grief produces a repentance that leads to salvation without regret, whereas worldly grief produces death.”)

In the end we not only feel pity for the toxically ambitious, but a peculiar form of gratitude. “There but for the grace of God go I.” The more you know the truth about Judas, the more you know and recoil at your own capacity to be one. The more you see gunners shooting themselves down, which they inevitably do, the more you let go of the gun yourself. The path of self-glorification, with all its self-justification and self-exoneration, is the path of self-destruction. This is why Judas Iscariot teaches us, like no one else, the value of our souls. The entire world is worthless in comparison. Jesus Christ fought to save and return your lost soul to you. Your job in life is to keep what He won for you; it is a job you won’t do without His help.

Can you imagine what a dramatic and glorious opera (or musical) “Iscariot” could be? Yeah, me too. It could be edifying as well. I guess I’m writing about it here because 2020 has made me want to start finishing some things in life from projects around the house to projects in my head. How about you?

Lent and What Matters

Job 1:21
And he said, “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.” (ESV)

For some people, Lent, like the rest of what Christianity offers, seems out of touch with reality. For some Christians it seems out of touch with theology. And besides this, aren’t we overcome with our fears of Coronavirus? If that doesn’t get us, maybe it will be cancer, or an accident, or, as some sarcastically suggest, a fatal paralysis brought on by overexposure to cable TV’s coverage of the election. So, what does Lent have to do with anything in 2020? What good is it? Aren’t authentic, modern believers past all such quirky, churchy traditions? Even if some “nominal” believers in that “other denomination” give up chocolate, wine, or Netflix for Lent, why does it matter?

It doesn’t. That’s the point. The first point of this season we call Lent is that little of we think matters really matters at all. You are going to die anyway, so you can stop hiding under your desk. Something will kill you. You are a day closer to it happening. Also, most of the things that you are working to the point of exhaustion to maintain, like your health or your bank account, will be drained down to nothing, certainly well before the end of the century. Whatever you have you will lose. That’s not negative thinking, that’s Lent. It’s a rehearsal or a renewal of the process of learning what you have when you lose everything. It is designed to bring you face-to-face with Christ. Fasting is like Lent in a bottle, available anytime of the year to anyone who is willing. Every need we feel acutely, like hunger, is an illustration of our primary need for Christ. When we let physical hunger remind us that we are spiritually hungry, we move toward wholeness and holiness as human beings.

For the 40 days (not counting the Sundays) from Ash Wednesday to the eve of Easter Sunday, we are called to stop… again… to face the fact that everything in our lives will stop soon enough. Are you really living your life? Let Lent show you the ways you are not. Let Lent show you what doesn’t matter. Let Lent pave the way in your heart and mind for a full, fresh view of the Crucified and Resurrected Christ.

Last of all, Lent is private. It is between you and God. Something needs to be.

Matthew 6:16–18
“And when you fast, do not look gloomy like the hypocrites, for they disfigure their faces that their fasting may be seen by others. Truly, I say to you, they have received their reward. But when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face, [18] that your fasting may not be seen by others but by your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you. (ESV)



2 Kings 6:17 – Then Elisha prayed and said, “O LORD, please open his eyes that he may see.” So the LORD opened the eyes of the young man, and he saw, and behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha. (ESV)

My eyes give me limited information about my context. My emotions fill in the blanks. I don’t ask, “What do I see?” I ask, “What does this mean?” Elisha’s servant woke up and saw that they were surrounded by an army. He knew this meant that they were toast. Elisha prayed for him and his eyes, but God changed more than what his eyes could see. God changed what the man thought about it. That’s what God can do for me right now in every area of my life. I need a change in my thinking. I see my life in disarray; it’s a mess of undone to-dos. A hostile army of small piles strikes fear in me. How will I ever get through this? Will I ever catch up? Then I think of my kids and how undone to-dos with them just disappear. If I procrastinate with them long enough I might forfeit my opportunity to have a talk or to play a game or to spend some time with them. There’s time and then there’s parent-time. Kids don’t wait for their parents to catch up. They can’t. They grow and get older and that’s it. It makes me want to burn the piles.

What I resort to instead is escape. I waste time in order to feel better about not having enough time to get things done. Then I feel defeated even before lifting a sword or a finger. I do nothing because I feel bad about doing nothing. This paralysis is my clue. I know I need a new perspective. “Show me Your army surrounding what I fear, Lord. Replace my paralysis with peace and my anxiety with action. Give me courage and faith. I lack both, but I know you give both upon request. Your Word is my Elisha this morning. Thank You for Your generosity and patience. Amen.”

Let’s be the “they.”

What are THEY going to do about it? This is a famous question. Asking it out loud almost forces one’s hands up in the air and one’s head to shake slowly side to side. Asked hard enough and it can be a question loaded with bitterness, blame, and helpless resignation.

The suicide rate of military veterans is now 21 a day. That’s down from 22 a day. It’s a start. Most of my 20+ year career in the military as a chaplain has been overshadowed by this statistic. I’m running the 2019 NYC Marathon for Hope For The Warriors not just to be nice, but because I’ve looked deep into the need for the work of this organization and hundreds like it. You have no idea how much work and money it has taken to get the number of suicides from 22 to 21 a day. Look at it this way: every day one more life is now saved. It’s a start, but just like a marathon is 26.2 miles, we’ve got a long way to run after finishing the first mile. 90.1% of every dollar Hope For The Warriors receives goes directly to programs and support for veterans. The other ten are pretty well split between the administration and fundraising. The NYC Marathon is picky about its charities. This, out of the many excellent military charities out there, is the one I see them standing behind the most. It’s not hard to see why.

Below is from their website…

“For the past 12 years, Hope For The Warriors® has been dedicated to serving those who have served. As a Veteran Service Organization, we provide a full-cycle of care to restore self, family, and hope to post-9/11 service members, their families, and families of the fallen.

We believe those touched by military service can succeed at home by restoring their sense of self, family, and hope. Nationally, Hope For The Warriors provides comprehensive support programs for service members, veterans, and military families that are focused on transition, health and wellness, peer engagement, and connections to community resources.

Hope For The Warriors is a family, united by our shared conviction of honor and sacrifice.”

I think the the time has come for all of us to be the “they” in the question, “What are they going to do about it?” Please pray about giving a donation big or small to them as part of my running the NYC Marathon for Hope For The Warriors. Here’s the link…

Thanks for reading this. Pray for these veterans. Somewhere nearby one or more are thinking about ending it all. Pray for light to shine and hope to rise in their hearts right now. Pray for Jesus to heal every wound inside and out. Amen.


Perhaps the Final Best Use Ever of Plastic Straws…

Here it is: early evidence of far-reaching musical genius and a shared indomitable, improvisational spirit. I confess doubts as to whether the same epic masterpiece might have been wrought with today’s paper straws, but I suspect my daughters have more vision and capacity for innovation than I do. This performance was recorded in Ocean Grove, NJ several summers ago. Note the ominous, telltale din of air conditioning in the background, the subtly inserted tribute to “Angels We Have Heard on High,” and the big finish.

A Beacon in Beacon, NY

Tonight we pray at and for our 4th site: Goodwill Beacon. Add your prayers to ours that our community integrates redemptively with the surrounding community. I’m praying for the leaders I’ve put in place and the leaders they’ve put in place. May they lead and be well… as well as… lead well. It’s about people and transformation and the One who creates both: The Lord our God. Every single one of us needs some major changes in life. We’re all desperate to start getting it right at last. We want a life without fake smiles, a life where when we tell people we’re fine, we mean it. What a goal: to be fine! You shall know the truth and the truth shall make you fine!

This latest blogsite, which is old by now, and infrequently visited by any of us, is one of about five that I have that have some measure of writing by me on them. I’ll link them together in this one as soon as I learn how. This occurs to me because our 4th site (really our 5th if you include the Lindsay-Pohlman Chapel in Montgomery, NY) represents integration as well as outreach. We are breaking a piece of ourselves off, but, at the same time, we are getting closer to and uniting under what we sense God is behind and what He is blessing. People are taking risks. People are second guessing themselves now that reality is upon them. The unexpected is expected to happen. There’s a new church in town.

Yeah, I know hardly anyone will notice at first. That’s probably a good thing. I saw the title of an article today that made me wonder: “Why is Christ more popular than the Church?” Another possible title for this article: “Slowest News Day Ever.” Best line from this article…

G. K. Chesterton: “The Bible tells us to love our neighbors, and also to love our enemies; probably because they are generally the same people.”

May Goodwill Beacon be a place of love that turns enemies into neighbors and neighbors into friends and friends into a church that makes a difference by not being about itself, but about Jesus. Amen.


A Nose for the Holy (or the Holly)

Glorious songs, sights, and sounds of end-of-the-year holidays, especially Christmas, are knit into our shared emotions and memories. But the smells of the season seem to be even more so!

Here’s my short, incomplete list of these smells…

Pine Tree Candle – Sometimes you first catch a whiff of this in stores newly decorated for Christmas. There’s probably a dozen varieties of Yankee Candles that exist as tribute to different aspects of this fragrance. Actual pines in the forest are the most breathtaking. There is nothing like the smell of pine. It takes over. Countless families risk the danger of a “real” Christmas tree for only this reason: the piney scent. The stuff in the spray can doesn’t come close, but it’s better than nothing.

Fresh from the Oven Chocolate Chip Cookies – The kitchen is really the iron-fisted queen of Christmas and Holiday smells. I don’t know the science behind the smell of molten chocolate, but I know the power of it. It enters the mind like an unforced hug, like a dark chocolatey Trojan horse. You welcome it unthinkingly, and then it rips the volitional steering wheel from your hands. There is no other power on earth that is able to “amend” diet commitments like the smell of “fresh from the oven Chocolate Chip Cookies.” It exterminates willpower. Gone. “Yes, I’ll have another.”

Fresh from the Oven Cinnamon, Apple Baked Things – This is among the strongest of the season’s kitchen aromas because it connects to the psychology of our holiday expectations. If something like the smell of fresh, hot apple pie is lighting up the air, it bespeaks of a distant hope. Maybe your weird uncle won’t be so weird this year. Maybe the family dinner conversation won’t take its annual dip into the abyss of awkwardness. Maybe another topic of conversation will finally overtake the subject of flatulence at the kids table… maybe literature or current events… maybe…

Gingerbread in the House  – The best way to catch a whiff of gingerbread is to eat it. The taste of ginger has a way of recruiting the sense of smell. All this fun leads you to say to yourself,  “Well, now that I’ve eaten the stale-gummy festooned chimney off of a gingerbread house that was sitting out in the open collecting dust for weeks, I declare my holiday food options expanded! A new world has opened to me.”

Eggnog with Nutmeg – This is the season’s olfactory equivalent of the Stop Sign or the Red Light. If you are about to glug down a second glass of Eggnog, you have reached the border. There is no going back. Somebody should have built a wall, but they did not. You will now find your post-eggnog options quite limited. Capacity for intake dramatically decreases as girth dramatically increases. Belt have more than one hole for a reason. Elastic is like the grace of God sometimes. “No, I’ve had enough. Thanks. I’m good.”

Newly Cracked-Open Hardcover Books – Lots of types of gifts seem to come and go, but the gift of a new book, maybe especially a new hardcover book, is timeless. When you first crack open a new book, there is that freshly printed scent. Some book lovers unashamedly press their noses right into the spine and inhale. Great, great smell. And if the book is an especially good one, it seems to smell even fresher and more valuable.

A Bleak Cold Day’s Bright Warm Fireplace – A lit fireplace is something that changes everything about a room. It offers a symphony of sounds, sights, and smells. It’s something that can be enjoyed alone, but is best enjoyed with others. You need someone to turn to and say, “What a great fire! Just what I needed on such a cold day… in such a cold world.”

Ancient, Churchy Incense – Few Protestant churches get this one. And some Catholic and Orthodox churches struggle as well, but those that do get it offer a palette of holiday aromas that truly transport worshippers. In Exodus 29:18b is says, “It is a burnt offering to the LORD. It is a pleasing aroma, a food offering to the LORD.” This looks like the first of many times something like this is mentioned in the Bible. Apparently, our Creator designed something in us that He has in Himself: the ability to be pleased by aromas that have sacred meaning, many of which are associated with food. In churches, the sacredness should be obvious, linked to sacrifice, which for us as Christians is linked to the Cross, so a form of this can flourish in our private homes too. There are 58 days left till Christmas, and then it is gone again. And then another year is as well. In a world that has always been filled with the kind of hate dominating the news lately, the “holy days” are meant to be just that: holy. Holy means “set apart.” Turn off the cable news and disconnect with the Internet. Turn your eyes from all your screens and onto your one and only life. This is it. Take a deep breath and take in the smells of the season, and thank God for it all.  Never forget that the word “Gospel” means “good news.”


“Why?” I have heard the question often. Occasionally I’m asked how I answer this question, especially when losses are horrible, shocking, cruel, evil… everything like what people in Pittsburgh are suffering tonight.

First, the question “why?” can be two things. It can be a standard question: the one seeking an answer. In cases involving loss, however, it can also be a one-word lament in the form of a question, in which case no answer is given or wanted. Any answer would be unintelligible; it would not matter because it could not change what those grieving wish they could change. Just last night all those people were preparing for their service this morning. They were gunned down in hate, the early reports indicate. “Why?”

I stopped writing here not long after my father passed away, undergoing a series of procedures intended to extend his life. No violence or hatred, of course, but still unexpected. “Why?”

Again, this second form of “why?” that life brings us all to the point of voicing may have a question mark at the end of it, but it is more of a statement. It is not about inquiring; it is about exhaling. It accompanies us when we are furious, not when we are curious. There is little point to explaining anything when most of what is present is pain and grief. Our minds do not hunger for information when our hearts ache for relief. This is especially so when we hurl “why?” up to God. It turns into, “why, God?” verses like Psalm 22:1 give us confidence that God wants both our “why?” questions and our “why?” statements. Christ quoted this verse and asked God “why?” from the Cross moments before He died.

“My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me, from the words of my groaning?”

God knows we sometimes want answers for the sake of answers. He knows that more often we need Him to know our hearts and their condition, especially when they are broken. “Why?”

This second form of “why?” can have many degrees. A family’s private loss is on one end of the scale while a city’s bitter bewilderment is on the other. Tonight it is Pittsburgh’s turn to exclaim “why?” The rest of us join them…



Ash Wednesday

Genesis 18:27 – Abraham answered and said, “Behold, I have undertaken to speak to the Lord, I who am but dust and ashes.

As I ran on the rail trail between Chester and Monroe, a group of students from a local high school, who apparently comprise their track team, ran the other way by me. I looked up to see ashes on some of their foreheads. Smears of black ash seemed like something that most people would want to wash off and forget. It looked embarrassing. It was ugly. Funny how something ugly can be beautiful.

Let me admit that these teenaged boys with their smudged foreheads inspired hope in me as I passed them. Somehow, despite all societal trends, they remain connected to Christian tradition. Christian tradition is the only thing that assures us that there will be any kind of Christian future. It begins with the Bible and tells us who we are as believers. If we cut it off in order to fit into contemporary culture, we cut off our identity.  The Holy Spirit wasn’t invented in the 20th century. Relevancy is a relative concept. Who knew that dark smudges worn all day by some teenagers could say so much? Well, whenever an imperfect tradition intends to be faithful to Scripture and involve Jesus Christ, it lives and promotes life spiritually in all of us.

I pray for all who read this that these days between Ash Wednesday 2018 and Easter Sunday 2018 would be days of repentance, renewal, and rejoicing. It matters. We all need our faith to be restarted and refreshed by the Holy Spirit. He has been filling and tending to Christ’s church from the beginning.

Ashes remind us of the incomparable grace and mercy of God in Christ.